Anyways, I'm just exhausted beyond belief. I think I like my new school, but I keep having doubts. Some days I think, "Man, his was way better than TCU." Other days, I think, " HOW THE HECK AM I GOING TO SURVIVE A PLACE LIKE THIS!!!"
Today was one of those days.
Feelings about today...
Frustrated
Lonely
Oversensitive
Scared
Stupid
Incompetent
Thirsty (I just really wanted a Dr. Pepper after this long day!)
Sad
Shy
Tears
I think this whole taking birth control pills thing (disclaimer: JUST FOR ACNE AND PERIODS) is starting to make me more hormonal, because I have felt a little more down than usual.
I tell everyone else, "Oh, UTA is GREAT!!! SO much better than TCU!" When really I'm thinking, "I'm trying to make this as best as I can, and I know it's only been 4 days, but... Why?"
How did I end up in a school like this? It is nothing like I would have wanted to do. Seriously, the one advice I will tell new college students is, "Don't ever think about *ducking it up. (I accidentally hit D next to some other letter, but I liked it :) ) Once you are in your dream school, do all you can to stay there! Cause once you're gone, you can never find a place like it." There is a reason I never even considered UTA. Because I KNEW it was something I was never interested in! I applied to 8 schools, got accepted to 5, and UTA was not even one of them. Everyone knows what kinds of schools are meant for them, and this just isn't mine. At least not yet. I'M REALLY TRYING, I PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!
I am just at UTA because of convenience. So I can just get a ducking degree :P
With all this duck talk, I should just be a biologist!
Tonight to try to make this better:
Read The Bible
Pray
Get Sleep
Wake up early and put on favorite music.
I really am trying to find the positive, but sometimes I just want to confront the frustration when I have it and just put it all out there! That's what this is for.
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