"Love and marriage, love and marriage
Go together like the horse and carriage
Dad was told by mother
You can't have one, you can't have none
You can't have one without the other!"
Hmm... You sure about that, Frank Sinatra?
With people starting to get married this time of year, it just makes me think about it more than usual. I see so many people who aren't married and i'm sure are very happy, but even they say they want to get married someday. What makes it so appealing? Is it a right of passage? Like graduating high school or getting a degree, it's just what you do! This is how life is supposed to be followed according to the game of LIFE:
-Get a degree at college
-Select a career
-Get married
-Buy a house
-Have lots of children
-Retire
and of course also manage to fit in finding a cure for cancer or t
aking a trip around the world!
And while LIFE is just a board game, is it really that far off comp
ared to what society expects of us? It's like a checklist of 'What to accomplish before I die.' I don't know, it just all seems so weird to me how everything is all sequenced out for us! Some people don't even take time in between each step of the game, they just skip from one accomplishment to the other!
Do I want this game of LIFE like everyone else does? I'd like to say "No, of course not, i'm independent, I make my own choices in life," but unfortunately, I don't think that. I want that 'something old, something new, something borrowed, something
blue,' white-picket fence with a porch and kids playing in the yard (not inside all day like most kids nowadays). I pray to God to help me find if this is what i'm meant to be. I sometimes get little glimpses of what my life might possibly be like if I was alone, and I don't like it. I spent last Valentines Day sitting on the couch with my dog, watching TV. That's when I realized, "I don't want this!" I will always believe in love and happiness but what if there's no Marriage to the whole 'Love and Marriage' bit? Maybe Frank was right, "You can't have one, you can't have none, you can't have one without the other." You can't have none. Meaning, not getting married... it's just not done! I'm one of those girls who secretly sneaks a peak in the latest bridal magazine while checking out at the grocery store. I want to someday actually buy one of those magazines proudly and say, "I'll take one 'Modern Bride' ple
ase! Why yes, here's my ring, isn't it beautiful?"
For now in the game of life, i'm in the 'Get a college degree' stage,
just hoping and praying that someday (and I don't mean when i'm middle aged) I will roll the dice, and finally land on the 'Happily Ever After' space. Until then, I will continue to add wedding websites and pictures to my 'Dreaming' bookmark on my laptop.
Love and marriage, love and marriage...
Some of my dreaming...
