Grow up already!

Sometimes I just want to skip all this. Just get my happily ever after. I want my own home where I can control my own life and happiness without having to worry about some other people. I know that if I did this, then I would miss out on so much, but sometimes I feel like I am already ready for that next step, and I want it: Living on my own, being a teacher, having kids. I know marriage should be on this list, I just sometimes wonder if I will. I want to, but it's not like there have been any prospects. I just am ready to not have to deal with tiffs with parents. I am done with that. I can't even carry on a conversation without it always ending awkwardly or in an argument of some kind. I stay calm, but then apparently I have an attitude. I am so over this. When I come home, I don't want to be here for more than a few hours, but I want a place where I can be. I want that place that I can go to when I want to be home. My own sanctuary. Where it won't be easy, but it will be comforting. I am ready for home...